My Birthday is here!!

Hi everyone,

I always use my birthday every year as a time to reflect on how Ive grown as a person. Lord knows this hasnt been a easy life for me and this year was by far not any different. But all the trials and pain I ve been through in life has made me stronger. More stronger than I ever thought I was. People talk down to me, talk behind my back in low and wisperhing tones and assume by my outside look that they know who DeNeva Marie Wilson is. I wish people would stop judging me and pressuming what and who I am. If people stopped to get to know me theyd see Im a person who prides herself on being a good freind and who give you the shirt off her back if someone needed it. But at the same time I dont have time for mess or for people to try and abuse or use me. I give of myself out of my heart not cause I have to but because I want to and my heart moves me to. However if Im played you can best beleive you will never ever get a chance to play me again. Life is way to short and precious to play childish highschool games with anyone. When Im dead and gone from this world I want people to remember me as someone who loved her life, who she was, and only wanted to make those around her happy.
I look at my birthday now as a blessing cause Im blessed to get things right another year as it goes day by day. Ive met so many people in my life that have changed my life more than they know. Some Ive met this year and they know who they are and Im so blessed that I have you all to add to the list of those who I can trust and depend on. You are not fair weather friends you are true friends for life and I love you all to pieces. Thanks for making this year so amazing for me.
I ve been getting cards and gifts all week along with emails and text messages and it makes me feel so loved that Im remembered even by those who are new friends but I adore them already as much as those Ive known for years.
Tommorrow will be a special day because I never saw to be honest myself living this long. I was born barley 2 pounds and wasnt expected to live. But my mom said "girl, you were a fighter from the day you were born and you've been a fighter ever since" And shes right its been a struggle for sure every step of the way but here I am in my 30's. Thats still blows my mind how far from that shy and interverted girl I was a big part of my life to someone who sings in front of people. Dont ask me how that happened lol lol I dont know but I do know Im no means the same girl I was Im a woman now .
With every year theres lessons learned and boy have I had to learn some painful ones this year is also no different. And I know next year will not be any different either.
And ya know Im looking forward to it because I know life throws us all curveballs but with the love and and support of my heavenly father, my wonderful honey bunny and friend , friends, and family Im getting better and better at catching them.
Thanks in advance for all the cards, gifts, and messages on my facebook, myspace, and twitter. I love you all and thank my heavenly father that Im surrounded so tightly by your love and support.
Diva

A week till my Birthday!

Well, its about 1am in the moring and little old me is up watching reruns of Rosanne lol. My honey bunny Joe works nights so its hard to be without him.

Next weekend is my birthday and Im so excited. Its amazing how another year has come and gone. Ive learned so much about myself and about others even this year. Im a lot wiser and have learned not to be such a push over. My mom has always told me that I was a lot stronger than I or the world gives me credit for beiing. And as I near my birthday I know this is among other things my mom has said is absoutly right.

Im excited at what Saturday will bring since I will be on vacation and will have time to spend with my love ones and my honey bunny Joe. I know Im gonna have some wonderful surprises and if you know me you know I love surprises. Its torture waiting another week but I know itll be worth it.

Im blessed to have the love and support that I do. And with every birthday I get more smarter and stronger and this year has been no diffierent. And Idoubt next will or the one after will be any diffirent.

I will be writing a blog letting you all know how my day goes next week. Take care until then and I love you all.

DeNeva

My Thanksgiving Blog

Hey everyone,I know with the holiday season coming up slowly but surly upon us we will all be busy over the next several days and into the next couple months into the New Year.I did however want to take the time to wish all my love ones including my family and friends a safe, happy, and blessed Thanksgiving.This year has been certainly a year of growth and reflection for me. Just when I think Ive learned or grown as much as I could something or someone in my life pushes me to grow and open myslef up to new and exciting things.Something I have such a tough time with is body issues and self cofindence and so forth. Its a daily fight and struggle for me everyday but is one that I vow to win.This year Ive been blessed with love and support from so many people that my heart overflows with thankfulness. I wont lie and say I dont feel like giving up sometimes but then I look at all the blessings my heavenly father has bestowed upon me.Ive been force to look at the good things in my life and how many people who Ive met and who have become a perminet fixture in my life now. I loss my brother when I was five and have to be honest its been painful not having him here with me in my life cause he was my protector and I could always count on him to fight for me. But when he died I felt so alone and not a day goes by that I dont miss him and wish he was here with me. Its been a lonley world for me without him and tears flow as I write that . But on the other hand I have family like my mom, grandpa, cousins and aunts and uncles who have helped fill that void as much as they could. Also I have all of you who that have made my world a lot less lonely and for that Im thankful for from the bottom of my heart. Some of you and u know who u are are truly like brothers and sisters to me even if not by blood you are still like my extended family. I know u have my back and I will always have yours even if I dont have much you know I will always be there for you.My struggles from chidhood through adulthood has made me the woman I am right now. I thankful my life hasnt been easy cause it has made me a fighter and one who will not take bull lying dying. I wasnt born a doormat and when my time is up on this earth I will not die one.I accept my body and everything else for what it is. Ill never ever be a model I know that but I know Im not ugly and Im not a freak or a alien or wierd as I was bullied into beleiveing . Every curve of my hips and butt and chest and whatever I view as a blessing not a curse. No one wants a bone but a dog and even he buries it . Im thankful that I finally am happy with me inside and out. Im thankful for finally realizing I have to love me before anyone else can. Im thankful I have a man who gave me that time to see that and friends who put of with me and my insecurties. I thankful for a mom who taught me to stand proud and that I was beatiful just the way god made me. Theres someone for everyone she would always say to me you just have to be patient for the love you desearve and Im thankful that even as painful a journey as it was to find him I finally found him!!Many times my spirit has been broken and this year has been no different but low and behold here I am a few weeks away from another birthday and my spirit is still suprisley in tac dont ask me how but only my heavenly father knows.My singing venture has grown more than I could imagine and I experience such joy and fear lol at the same time when Im on stage and Im blessed that so many people saw potential in me and kept after me for over two years to perform and start doing more with my songwriting. Its because of you guys Im come to beleive in me and can embrace the divaness inside of me and feel confident in my ablielty. No matter who wants to put me down or make fun or me Im gonna beleive in me and the love of performing and songwriting that has been inside of me since i was 12 years old. Music has been a savior to me and if I didnt have it I dont know if Id be alive right now to write this to be honest.Theres so so much more I could say but I dont want to be to drawn out. But I want all of you to know that you are all part of what Im thankful for this year and for all the years to come.When its hard for me to get up and face the world at times its the feeling of love and support that I know waits for me that gets me up.I wish all of you and your family and friends a wonderful Thanksgiving.I love you all and dont know how I wouldve made it through this year without each and every one of you.Love and BlessingsHappy ThanksgivingDeNeva Marie WilsonakaDiva

Been sick

Hey all
Ive been a bit sick latly so I wont be doing any real blogging till after the holidays. But I promise I will be blogging a lot really soon.
Love to you all<3

My New Blog

Hey all this is the first of many blogs from yours truly.
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