My Thanksgiving Blog

Hey everyone,I know with the holiday season coming up slowly but surly upon us we will all be busy over the next several days and into the next couple months into the New Year.I did however want to take the time to wish all my love ones including my family and friends a safe, happy, and blessed Thanksgiving.This year has been certainly a year of growth and reflection for me. Just when I think Ive learned or grown as much as I could something or someone in my life pushes me to grow and open myslef up to new and exciting things.Something I have such a tough time with is body issues and self cofindence and so forth. Its a daily fight and struggle for me everyday but is one that I vow to win.This year Ive been blessed with love and support from so many people that my heart overflows with thankfulness. I wont lie and say I dont feel like giving up sometimes but then I look at all the blessings my heavenly father has bestowed upon me.Ive been force to look at the good things in my life and how many people who Ive met and who have become a perminet fixture in my life now. I loss my brother when I was five and have to be honest its been painful not having him here with me in my life cause he was my protector and I could always count on him to fight for me. But when he died I felt so alone and not a day goes by that I dont miss him and wish he was here with me. Its been a lonley world for me without him and tears flow as I write that . But on the other hand I have family like my mom, grandpa, cousins and aunts and uncles who have helped fill that void as much as they could. Also I have all of you who that have made my world a lot less lonely and for that Im thankful for from the bottom of my heart. Some of you and u know who u are are truly like brothers and sisters to me even if not by blood you are still like my extended family. I know u have my back and I will always have yours even if I dont have much you know I will always be there for you.My struggles from chidhood through adulthood has made me the woman I am right now. I thankful my life hasnt been easy cause it has made me a fighter and one who will not take bull lying dying. I wasnt born a doormat and when my time is up on this earth I will not die one.I accept my body and everything else for what it is. Ill never ever be a model I know that but I know Im not ugly and Im not a freak or a alien or wierd as I was bullied into beleiveing . Every curve of my hips and butt and chest and whatever I view as a blessing not a curse. No one wants a bone but a dog and even he buries it . Im thankful that I finally am happy with me inside and out. Im thankful for finally realizing I have to love me before anyone else can. Im thankful I have a man who gave me that time to see that and friends who put of with me and my insecurties. I thankful for a mom who taught me to stand proud and that I was beatiful just the way god made me. Theres someone for everyone she would always say to me you just have to be patient for the love you desearve and Im thankful that even as painful a journey as it was to find him I finally found him!!Many times my spirit has been broken and this year has been no different but low and behold here I am a few weeks away from another birthday and my spirit is still suprisley in tac dont ask me how but only my heavenly father knows.My singing venture has grown more than I could imagine and I experience such joy and fear lol at the same time when Im on stage and Im blessed that so many people saw potential in me and kept after me for over two years to perform and start doing more with my songwriting. Its because of you guys Im come to beleive in me and can embrace the divaness inside of me and feel confident in my ablielty. No matter who wants to put me down or make fun or me Im gonna beleive in me and the love of performing and songwriting that has been inside of me since i was 12 years old. Music has been a savior to me and if I didnt have it I dont know if Id be alive right now to write this to be honest.Theres so so much more I could say but I dont want to be to drawn out. But I want all of you to know that you are all part of what Im thankful for this year and for all the years to come.When its hard for me to get up and face the world at times its the feeling of love and support that I know waits for me that gets me up.I wish all of you and your family and friends a wonderful Thanksgiving.I love you all and dont know how I wouldve made it through this year without each and every one of you.Love and BlessingsHappy ThanksgivingDeNeva Marie WilsonakaDiva

Been sick

Hey all
Ive been a bit sick latly so I wont be doing any real blogging till after the holidays. But I promise I will be blogging a lot really soon.
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My New Blog

Hey all this is the first of many blogs from yours truly.
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