My Birthday is here!!

Hi everyone,

I always use my birthday every year as a time to reflect on how Ive grown as a person. Lord knows this hasnt been a easy life for me and this year was by far not any different. But all the trials and pain I ve been through in life has made me stronger. More stronger than I ever thought I was. People talk down to me, talk behind my back in low and wisperhing tones and assume by my outside look that they know who DeNeva Marie Wilson is. I wish people would stop judging me and pressuming what and who I am. If people stopped to get to know me theyd see Im a person who prides herself on being a good freind and who give you the shirt off her back if someone needed it. But at the same time I dont have time for mess or for people to try and abuse or use me. I give of myself out of my heart not cause I have to but because I want to and my heart moves me to. However if Im played you can best beleive you will never ever get a chance to play me again. Life is way to short and precious to play childish highschool games with anyone. When Im dead and gone from this world I want people to remember me as someone who loved her life, who she was, and only wanted to make those around her happy.
I look at my birthday now as a blessing cause Im blessed to get things right another year as it goes day by day. Ive met so many people in my life that have changed my life more than they know. Some Ive met this year and they know who they are and Im so blessed that I have you all to add to the list of those who I can trust and depend on. You are not fair weather friends you are true friends for life and I love you all to pieces. Thanks for making this year so amazing for me.
I ve been getting cards and gifts all week along with emails and text messages and it makes me feel so loved that Im remembered even by those who are new friends but I adore them already as much as those Ive known for years.
Tommorrow will be a special day because I never saw to be honest myself living this long. I was born barley 2 pounds and wasnt expected to live. But my mom said "girl, you were a fighter from the day you were born and you've been a fighter ever since" And shes right its been a struggle for sure every step of the way but here I am in my 30's. Thats still blows my mind how far from that shy and interverted girl I was a big part of my life to someone who sings in front of people. Dont ask me how that happened lol lol I dont know but I do know Im no means the same girl I was Im a woman now .
With every year theres lessons learned and boy have I had to learn some painful ones this year is also no different. And I know next year will not be any different either.
And ya know Im looking forward to it because I know life throws us all curveballs but with the love and and support of my heavenly father, my wonderful honey bunny and friend , friends, and family Im getting better and better at catching them.
Thanks in advance for all the cards, gifts, and messages on my facebook, myspace, and twitter. I love you all and thank my heavenly father that Im surrounded so tightly by your love and support.
Diva

A week till my Birthday!

Well, its about 1am in the moring and little old me is up watching reruns of Rosanne lol. My honey bunny Joe works nights so its hard to be without him.

Next weekend is my birthday and Im so excited. Its amazing how another year has come and gone. Ive learned so much about myself and about others even this year. Im a lot wiser and have learned not to be such a push over. My mom has always told me that I was a lot stronger than I or the world gives me credit for beiing. And as I near my birthday I know this is among other things my mom has said is absoutly right.

Im excited at what Saturday will bring since I will be on vacation and will have time to spend with my love ones and my honey bunny Joe. I know Im gonna have some wonderful surprises and if you know me you know I love surprises. Its torture waiting another week but I know itll be worth it.

Im blessed to have the love and support that I do. And with every birthday I get more smarter and stronger and this year has been no diffierent. And Idoubt next will or the one after will be any diffirent.

I will be writing a blog letting you all know how my day goes next week. Take care until then and I love you all.

DeNeva